today is ashleys birthday, shes omg how old?

was she the first person i ever met from the internet?

i think so.

life is such a weird and wonderful thing that i dont know what advice id have for my kids if i had them.

i would say try thing, pray a lot, and learn how to judge people by their hearts.

we can get distracted a lot by how pretty some people are, or how fancy their cars are, or how well they speak foreign languages

but one thing they teach you in little league football is “if youre trying to tackle someone, aim at their belly button, dont get faked out by their arms or head or eyes.”

ashley and i chatted a lot on the now ancient AOL instant messenger and the good thing about that is you can learn a lot about someone simply by their words. hours and hours of words.

to me thats the same as looking into their hearts, which is why i think people fall in love with writers and authors and poets and songwriters. words are the highways to the soul. and on a thing like AIM it’s hard to fake. nowadays everyone has text messages or snapchats and you could show a picture of your infinity pool or your sixpack and if your emoji game is on point who knows what nonsense you can make others believe you are all about.

but words on a blank screen, live, while you’re living, that’s pretty much you.

and so when we met it was, oh yes, hi, oh your accent is funny. oh your eyes are that blue.

oh you really do wear a cubs hat everywhere.

ashley is pretty active on the social medias and its nice to see her be such a great mom to her little angel. it’s so nice to see that her family and extended family are just as close and happy as they seemed to be decades ago. it makes me happy because it couldn’t have happened to a nicer person. and today i hope she has a great birthday.

how do you prove you’re creative

how do you show someone you’re the one

how do you say im a great leader but im also good on a team

what if you show them a goal where its you and four of them

and they say but wheres your teammates?

can you say my teammates are in my heart?

can you say my teammates passed me the puck?

can you say my teammates are the wind beneath my wings?

how do you do anything if you think about it so much?

yogi berra was in this terrible slump and his manager casey stengel was all, yogi do this

then his teammate mickey mantle said, yo yogi try this

then his other teammate billy martin said, pizan why arent you doing this?

so yogi went to the plate and struck out.

he moped back to the dugout and before anyone could say anything he yelled

I CANT THINK AND HIT AT THE SAME TIME!

how do you tell them you could always hit

how do you tell them the luck in your life has always been your great teams

not your hits?

and your wins were always shared experiences that you loved loved loved

which is why youre still friends with everyone.