whatever blood is coursing through my veins from my ancestors
who for hundreds and hundreds of years in this country were slaves
has been yelling at me since i was a kid to be free
and for the last two months that has mean free from this blog too
20 years has been a lot
this year has been a lot
breaking up with amber was a lot
we were joined at the hip for years
and ive been not thriving for years neither, if we are to be honest with each other
ive done a lot of work but what came of it?
i still got one guy who thinks he doesnt ever need to pay me for making miracles for him
i will be paid
and i will thrive
those things will come, have no fear
but ive noticed one thing – when its about me, it gets very uncomfortable
the thing that i love right now, more than i ever expected, is this podcast
this week i did an interview that might end up being the best one
meanwhile tomorrow i need to edit a really long one i did a few weeks ago that jordan
for the first time ever
asked me for help on.
Tonight was unseasonably warm
80s in the day and mid 70s at night
so i walked around at night listening to it and it too is fantastic
and for once i said some things im proud of
i am exhausted, i need this thanksgiving break, im not sure if imma get it because i am working until the end of the year with a non profit that is world wide
so im not sure if they get the holidays off.
but even if they dont imma get a bunch of podcasting done because
its good for the people.
and im bringing it to them
and im excited because without me and jordan
these stories of good people
wouldnt be out in the world
and thats a whole lot better feeling than
whatever the opposite of free is,