he said
oh… they’re right.
being a writer or an artist or even a person in the world walking around dealing with other people
there will be a still small voice in your head that says
the most terrible negative nonsense
about how you are horrible at this, or mean to that person
or stinky or old or naive or out of touch or phony
and there will be this little
tiny
teensy
faint
peep
that says
tony pierce you are the best in the fucking world
and i love you.
at least thats what mine says.
and if you are going to put yourself out in the world as a public writer or artist or musician or
just dude proclaiming here i am here i am here i am
the echo you get back will often be a mixture of stfu with oh god please stfu.
there is no way to handle that dynamic
other than handle it.
and from my time in the crosshairs, the best way that i have learned to deal with it, is to learn from mr warhol
and just flat out agree with them.
and then when they’re trying to figure out what just happened,
go on and do your damn thing anyway.
and do your best to make your thing bad ass
cuz lord knows now theyre really gonna let you have it.