yes

when you know you’re right, what do you do

of course you stand up for yourself

of course you don’t just roll over

for those who lack courage

imagination

style

success

LIFE

of course you fight fight fight.

imagine if david byrne said i have a dream

and jonathan demme said, but that sounds like a nightmare

would byrne have said oh, lets appease all of your darkest fears

instead of reach for the highest star

if he had his name wouldnt have been david byrne

it would have been phil collins.

be david byrne.

and if you can’t,

be jonathan demme and make dreams come true.

it’s weird being the old guy in the office

it’s weird being in an office

it’s weird being at the oscars

it’s weird still blogging

it’s weird how wifi works

it’s weird that this can instantly be published around the world

it’s weird to think that some people, who could feed the whole country, don’t.

it’s weird to think

it’s weird how much my new tire costs

it’s weird what kind of car i drive

maybe we shouldn’t even day dream when we’re young

because if you’re doing it right,

nothing ever turns out the way you thought it would.

it makes me sad because i always hit my deadlines.

but this is a different type of assignment. it’s long and involved. and even though we knew about it a month ago, i had three other assignments between then and now, plus i had to work far longer on those than i expected.

and worse of all, this one, like i said, is long and involved. and i know nothing about it.

and my stomach was in knots all day today and a little yesterday because of it.

sometimes a situation appears in front of you and you know how to work with it. 99% of the time i drive i know several different routes to where we need to go if disaster strikes. thats why im always cool behind the wheel.

in this scenario, i knew everything was against me. most of all, time.

with me, there is often a little spark of magic that strikes when i write things

sometimes.

from day one on this thing, a month ago, there was no magic, ever. it was all work.

dig dig dig, polish, place.

one sentence after another. it literally would take hours for a sentence.

mostly because it has to be true. and accurate. and well written. and with proof.

so you read read read. talk talk. google read google. then you have a sentence.

i even talked to experts but they were on a different plane.

our planes never intertwined.

last week my plane and the other dudes planes were doing loop di loos together.

any question i had there was an answer. anywhere i wanted to go, he was there too.

it was different because he had little two sentence answers, which is quotable but i wanted to get deep.

so i realized i needed several followups.

this was harder. still is. i have tonight and i have tomorrow to see what last minute miracle happens.

and hopefully i got over the tough transition today, but im still not sure.

heres my biggest fear about it: i dont want kids looking at it while doing research if its not fucking great.

as someone who dealt with less than fucking great materials when i was a kid,

i dont wanna be that guy to them.

yesterday we said goodby to Patrick J, the young drupal developer who was swooped up by our competitor

Patrick had worked with us for about a year and a half. quiet, unassuming, brilliant.

we would go to lunch all the time and talk about Tesla, iphone apps, and the east coast

the weird thing is, when i originally saw his resume and corresponding personal site

i didnt think we should hire him.

that kid is too quiet and his site has pretty much nothing on it i said

so, they asked?

i said he is hiding something.

turned out he WAS hiding something.

he was hiding that he was probs the best drupal developer around.

sad to see him go but excited to see what he will do for them.

rock on Patrick J, thanks for showing me Natalie Thai