oj and courtney

and everyone but you

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i writer everyday

and ask her to come back

but i do not send em

i think about younger girls

or bigger girls or wilder

girls arent what im lookin for now

but you know that

and its not super, man, thinking about

all of whatever happened

that added up to this

which is me alone at 2am

suckin on a pen

thinking of how i write and write and nothings

you drive through the desert

and you see two things

oilrigs pumping and windmills spinning

motion and no movement

spirit, no action.

whirling and whirling

typing and hopeing and praying

and thinking

im gonna die without her

thinking im so stupid to even be thinking

everyone gets over theirs

i got over mines

whats so damn perfect about this little flatchest grrl

with her perfect hair and lips

we’d kiss and cry and lie all night

slept in so many rooms

all over california mexico and foreign lands like

gretna and maui

whats the good lord got saved for me

do bums in the street with heaps of dirty clothes used as sheets

snoozing away in a doorway think about what the lords gonna bring em

and who am i to ask when theyve got real dreams

i just want my little girl.

clouds pass by overhead silent in the nightsky

theyre going to where clouds die

and theyve seen her why dont they tell me hows it really.

the rain, it rains, and it pours on a little pink girls bike

half falling down no kickstand

im damned why wont he say it

in a holding cell not hell but close someone in the cloud has a rope

but theyre scared id use it the cheater way and youd see dangling converses

in the morning with milk but i got better plans dear fans

i just want my little girl.

and they bowl as the rain pours tears from sobbing saints twentyfour hours it flashes

semis blow past spray mud on the corn and i wish sometimes i wasnt born

you dont need me what role am i bukowski kicks the shit outta this guy

dont fuck good anymore and i cant hit a curve

i teach fools how to sell im the king of the nerds

so whys he got me breathing still aint i paid all my bills

maybe thats it.


i still want my little girl.

bunnie + zulieka + listen missy