who once sang about Instant Karma and how its gonna get u

karma, a buddhist concept, is actually something you want to avoid cuz it gets in yr way

and lessens the chances of you being Enlightened at that moment.

you want to be in the moment.

which moment?

the moment where buddah does something wacky like simply raise a flower

and errryone gets it, and becomes enlightened right then.

pretty girl said go find yourself. get lost. go somewhere you dont know.

and it puzzled me cuz i was pretty sure i knew exactly who i was

but she was right, i had lost my place in the novella called our lives.

so i found myself somewhere new.

but no one said you have to be there forever, just long enough to be open

like really open.

and 30,000 feet above the usa, in the dark, with yr eyes closed

listening to bob dylan radio on xm as bob plays old blues numbers for you

you just might find yourself ready for a little epiphany.

and you might get off that plane

refreshed, revitalized, and ready.

instant light.

ready to shine.

.. hows about August?

barnsdale park, aug 2
impromptu picnic turns into a free show

santa monica blvd, aug 2
last known sighting of the tranny del taco (r.i.p.)

glendale, aug 7
test drove a camaro, dude wouldnt let me go on the freeway, so i didnt buy it

the griddle, hollywood, aug 8
two fancy models ordered breakfast, talked lots, drank water, this is what they left behind

west la, aug 11
sometimes the grass really is greener on the other side

cal state long beach, aug 12
taught these high school kids a lil about online journalism. our futures bright.

hollywood, aug 13
the truest showing me what her african walking stick turns into (no airports noticed)

the vista, aug 14
saw scott pilgrim vs the world, best movie of the year

sunset junction street fair, aug 21
my favorite LA street fest never fails

sunset strip, aug 28
people were so drunk, and by people i mean these two girls, not the smashing pumpkins (who played)

la county museum of art, aug 29
sass came into town from vegas, so we had a photo shoot

santa monica place, aug 30
they reopened a mall, so the truest and i took it in

demand media, santa monica, aug 31
was asked to speak on a panel about the web and stuff, reluctantly went, had fun

and to me thats more flattering than anything

they trust me and thats such a blessing. they confide in me and listen and im honored.

sometimes they just lift their tops and say step right in my heart.

obvs thats fascinating as all get out when it happens esp when i dont think ive earned that level of respect & frankness.

but you know whats equally amazing? when folk who should completely trust me dont. peeps who have seen me do my thing under pressure, when the s goes down, when the fit hits the shans and watch me remain calm and cool.

wouldnt you think that those people would be ok sonnys a solid dude, the genuine article, the real deal, lets believe in him?

but they dont.

instead they’ll put all their eggs in the biggest phony baloneys basket like i just gave them a $3 bill, and i promise you im not saying this in a whiny way, cuz i dont care, im just watching, and frankly it’s their trip. i know who i am.

it’s just mindboggling when intelligent minds see someone who they know is consistent and true, but choose everything else instead. intentionally. w/o spite.

crazy for any of us to compare ourselves with the messiah, but one reason i love the Good Book is because if you read it, not even closely, but just read it, you’ll see that anything effed up that has happened to you has happened to the Lord God Jesus except way worse.

but there was Jesus, walking on water, healing the sick, turning loaves and fishes into sashimi and sake; and when push came to shove ZERO of his disciples believed in him. like really.

peter the alleged Rock dissed him three times before the cock crowed, phillip was all hey Jesus before the Romans kill you can you show us The Father, and even modern day Christians refuse to love and trust and lay down their arms the way the Prince of Peace preached – but they’ll sure wear the cross and plaster that fish on the back of their mini van and quote from this passage or that one to give the impression that theyre something, when theyre pretty much the opposite.

so how can i take it personally when it happens to lil ole me:

a dull old blogger from the streets.

no one said this do-se-do of birth school work death was going to make any sense

or be fair or logical or fun all the time.

and what i love about Jesus is he promises it’ll definitely suck for everyone

for longer than we expected.

so hang on and love those while theyre loving you back.

and dont be the dumbass u hate.

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even the animals are excited beyond belief

The little girl had milk n cookies ready for santa, and carrots for the reindeer (and good beer for me!)

Turned out to be a really bad idea to put these next to the tree cuz that big dog spilled the milk and started drinking it

so we put him in the basement

my mom’s crazy Christmas Village just gets bigger and bigger each year

lots of trees in my sister’s house, i told the kids Santa may get confused

everyones asleep now so lets hope everything works out in the morn

Merry Christmas!!!

(and the beer that goes with it)

.. next stop, July

it was a great july: interviewed bruce willis, saw rage against the machine, stole ironman’s girlfriend at santa monica beach, saw a deadhead sticker on a cadillac, saw the cubs sweep the dodgers – perfecto

the first is meredith r cheesbrough who turns 27 today. i really love her blog and you should too

the other is of born again 2pac. real 2pac was born on a different day, but born again 2pac was born today cuz this is the day i found this incredible painting/mural/thingee

happy birthday funky peeps!

i want things my way. im selfish. i judge. i rarely forgive people. ive lost most of my mojo.

and if i could have a guy stand behind me as i held two burger king chicken sandwiches, i would.

in fact id have another guy stand in front of that guy to dance for me while i stayed at home writing on the internet – my only real joy.

the people who suffer the most from who i am are the people closest to me. all they want to do is have a good time and bask in the fiction that i present in this blog.

but as a young lady who just met me said, im a complicated onion.

and unlike many fun complicated things like hitchcock plots or g spots or moneyball techniques in the age of $20 mill a year free agents, theres not a lot of reward at the end of my dark rainbow.

best you can hope for is a half decent meal and a bitter man calling you pretty.

2011 is going to be the year of the secret blog.

the busblog will go through a once-in-a-decade revamp which will really just be a beautiful fakeout to distract the casual reader from whats really happening in the shadows on another url.

the ultimate in selfishness, i know, but at least it’ll be consistent to who the author is.