here’s the crazy thing: every one of our podcasts have gone up on time

i have never had a problem with deadlines

deadlines are your friends.

but this week’s was actually done a little early, i had time to watch church, fold my laundry, do some dumb baseball card things, and write a few blog posts.

am i getting better? do we have a little rhythm?

this blog post for Jake is actually way longer and includes more images than the typical post but i think because he spoke very clearly it was easier to post?

who knows. who knows anything. all i know is i wanted him very badly to be part of this

then it happened. and now he’s back in Texas for who knows how long?

sometimes that window of opportunity is there

and sometimes you have to wait outside that window and throw lil pebbles at it

imma go to sleep, wake up and put it up and be happy.

i am very happy doing this podcast.

this will be number 19.

nuh nuh nuh nuh nineteen.

i figure if i can make it easy enough for her to hear it and read it and watch the lil commercials

then i have hit the ideal barrier to entry

my problem is i have two youtube channels

a medium page that’s sorta behind a paywall

several different ways to access the podcasts

and then my crazy social channels, none of which she taps into.

so this weekend im gonna build a Hear in LA website, here on this server

and everything will live here

and thats probably not the best way to do things, but who cares any more.

i just want my mom to be happy and be proud

just like how Louie felt about his ma

Brew and Fish of Fishbone were supposed to be on a plane coming to LA

from DC

but it was canceled.

The ticket lady said we can fly you out in the morning

or you can roll the dice and try to fly tonight.

Just one of many fascinating tales this great musician told me.

brought the trash cans in

then stayed inside the rest of the day seeing if anyone liked my thing

crazy result:

only three people said anything

even though hundreds saw it.

best reaction was from the interviewee who said

it was excellent, and it made him cry.

i had such a hard time advertising it because i didn’t want to exploit the tragedy

i just hoped they could make it to 20 minutes in.

hans did!

this video means a lot to me

ive been learning video editing all summer and it’s coming together

this thing is flawed in so many ways but

BUT

flawed in the best way

because just a few months ago if you said tony you have five hours to make something cool

no way could i have made this

i am learning. i am making. i am being creative.

the tony who i love is in this.

the tony no bologna but full of macaroni is in this.

and i did it all night and fell asleep at 5am

and woke up at 10 so i could see it

and when i did and i laughed i coudlnt get back to sleep

because im getting there.

how grateful i am for this life

this crazy life ive had

for all the wonderful, weird, beautiful things ive gotten to see

incredible, exotic, fascinating girls ive gotten to kiss

and wild music ive gotten to hear

all of that

while also getting to watch

so much tv.

i am truly blessed and i want to spend the rest of my life

on hookers n blow

i mean… giving back.

i feel like my podcast with Richard went beautifully

it was fun to catch up

it’s always nice to talk about both the LA Times and the Oscars

and Richard is one of those guys who knows both of them intimately.

i think our convo was enlightening to people who want to know what Hollywood insiders are like

and it doesnt hurt that he was brutally honest because after a while who really cares?

may as well keep it real.

also i like the portrait i took of him

i dont know why i didnt think i was smart enough to learn

actually i do

in school i was given mixed messages.

they said i “tested well” but then they’d give me crappy grades.

but when i did well, they put me in a special room or on the back of the class

with the smart kids

which to me was just as terrible as being in a place deemed Dumb Kids

i wanted to be with everyone.

id dabbled with this piece of software and that one now and then and i just couldnt work it

but for some reason, and i know im cheating because im doing wacky things with screen shots

and iphones and Instagram Stories and air drop and

not entirely Davinci Resolve

but today i made that video, and i did the Grammy Award transition so i wouldnt get dinged by the Grammys

and then i did the Rihanna bang at the end

plus i took that picture at the beginning and the end of Jeffs book shelf

and then tonight

because jordan was on a jet plane

i did some audio editing

i didnt like a sentence i said and a few words in another place

id been playing around with the In n Outs but it didnt really come together until i did it

just

in the audio track and voila

which is french for tony,

the apes have learned how to use weapons.

this couldnt have come at a better time.

speaking of time, that video up there took me 20 minutes.

the one a few days ago took me 6 hours.

also im back using my magic office room

which Emmanuelle called “le makeout closet”

for years it was amber’s man cave and can you believe it took me 8 months to claim it back,

WHAT WOULD THE SHRINK SAY ABOUT THAT?

i feel so incredibly good that i am learning things

i feel so grateful that i have the tools that i need

and youtube

and a little time.