here it is Christmas Eve and we tried eating tamales

but we couldnt find none

drove all the way down sunset to East LA but i guess they only sell them early in the morning.

it’s ok. everythings ok. everythings been ok. everything will be ok.

i just finished writing about all 21 jobs ive ever had. mama mia that was epic. i have been very blessed.

then on top of it are all the things that happened when i wasnt working. all the bowling i did, all the poems i wrote, all the girls whose eyes i melted into.

and then there was sports. and computers. and video games. and books. and breakdancing. and sailing.

one summer all i did was sail every day in the frigid san francisco bay.

when youre 16, shivering among white caps you dont think you’re learning lessons that will stick with you forever but thats where life is awesome.

one of the lessons i learned had to do with wind. cant do shit on a sailboat if theres no wind. likewise if theres too much wind you’re just trying not to flip over.

but lets talk about no wind because in a way thats what so many americans are dealing with right now. how do you succeed if theres no work, millions are unemployed, people cant go inside restaurants and there are all these restrictions?

the lesson i learned out there was when theres no wind, look at the bridge. check out the mountains. notice the fog crawling over the peaks. listen to the sea gulls. watch the tour boats.

basically all the things that youd not have any time to soak in: enjoy.

ive got a GF bouncing off the walls because she cant work right now. and when i say lets watch the Mandalorian together she says shhhh. she says dont tell me what to do. she says why are you posing like a super model? why are you juggling my flip flops. wait, when did you learn to juggle?

and i said, on the sailboat when there was no wind.

all my electronics died today

phone, laptop, it was a mess.

tvs worked though, and since i have three of them i put em to work.

watched a mess of Nardwuars. greatest interviewer of all time.

watched a few hours of Steve Albini talk about analogue vs digital and how some recording studios are terrible but the barns outside next to them are way better, acoustically.

listened to duff from guns n roses talk about punk and then watched him jam with janes addiction

saw an old velvet revolver appearance on letterman and forgot how good they were

watched dave on carson commiserate about leno stealing the tonight show from him

then watched conan do about the same thing on dave’s show about leno stealing the tonight show from him

then took a nap

then watched the cubs game

then had a serious discussion with amber which ended up with her agreeing and agreeing as she dozed off to sleep

when i was a teenager. 16 or so. i spent the summer learning how to sail in sausalito.

little boats that loved to capsize in the middle of that freezing cold bay.

some days itd be so windy it would create white caps on the top of the water

and some days, these would be rare mind you, but there wouldnt be any wind

you had to race in both conditions and in all the elements in between.

these were great lessons for a young person to learn:

how do you win when theres lots of activity and how do you win when theres none.

if you try the same techniques when its not windy as you do in the wind, you will lose by a mile.

wasnt any wind today inside my house. tons outside.

cubs lost