i have two looks, and that’s it

i have one that does not give one fuck.

and i have another that wants to sell out in the biggest way.

ive done things that go against my ideals.

ive done them for money or because i want to see if the rumors are true.

and i cant say i regretted them, but i knew it was the wrong choice

and it turned out to be just as bad if not worse.

right now i am doing exactly what i want.

for the first time in a long time.

i wake up when i want. i work allllll the time.

medium paid me $5 for all those posts i put up last month.

still, i wish you knew how happy i am.

even you who writes me mean emails and plants untruths.

and you who wanted the best for me, and i dragged my feet.

i will never drag my feet again.