who was so loving, and lovable, and sweet
and i swear to you i tried
but i fucked it all up
even when it was over and she reached out
i didnt know what to do
and i am so sorry. i wish you could know how sorry i am.
i think about her more now than ever
but what good is that?
how could i have been different? what could i have done?
are some problems unfixable?
no i dont think so. i think there are always solutions. always.
she was right here for years. right here every night.
im trying to think, other than a few rare exceptions we were right next to each other every night.
why couldnt i fix it
i was nervous that if we ever broke up she wouldnt be able to pull it off
she was soooooo good at work, i said to myself, of course she can
or she will meet some handsome rich guy and that’ll do it