there are very limited circumstances where i desire to stand out

i know its hard to believe but i am not interested in being the story

do i talk alot on hear in LA, yes, but thats bc im trying to get the other person to talk more

one day i’ll try an episode where i give one sentence replies, or canned questions like that dude from As It Lays

im thinking about clothes because of dating

for most of my life ive been able to get away with never having to wear anything more than jeans and a tshirt.

id like to keep that streak going in part bc im lazy but also bc i feel the more i try the dumber i look, so why try

also i have this gut that rarely looks good in anything other than santa claus costumes

but im a hypocrite bc when i look at ambers old pictures i think about her clothes and how i either loved loved loved something on her that would inspire me to buy her something better

i bought a lot of her clothes and she was a good sport and tried them all

but mostly she just wore concert tshirts which i loved

was amber the girlfriend i thought i would live the longest with? no.

or at all? no.

and thats why i love God. somehow He figured, no ill use a little divine intervention on this one bc tony is just gonna sit around his house and work and work and not have this interesting journey

and it was

and i learned so much about how much a boyfriend can actually do

(not a lot, sadly)

and about codependency, which i def had, and will knock it off if i ever get another gf

and how if i ever start to get serious 

i will suggest that on one of our dates we spend a half hour just looking into each others eyes

trying to get as deep as we can

asking hard questions that cant filibuster

get to the point

and if that works out then fine, ill show you my favorite taco stand