the first few times i went into the Daily Nexus i was so afraid

also i did not understand the instructions and my first “piece” was thrown directly into the garbage

area

aka the floor.

it wasn’t even good enough for the can.

a few years later i was one vote away from being the boss.

i love every one of these podcasts.

i love todays too.

why it’s not on fire is beyond me.

are people busy?

this is the most interesting challenge i have had in a very long time and maybe because i care so much, it’s like straining when youre on the throne

and you should just let it ease out.

and then go on with life.

but i cannot go on with life.

this is my life.

odd because if i literally do not move on to the next episode

we wont get to it

and it’s due in a few days.

today’s was the 19th or 20th episode.

Jodie Evans

someone got mad about it.

every time i put out a podcast it flops on my Facebook.

i can’t figure out the algorithm. FB typically doesn’t like links that go outside of its walls, so i make little videos and upload them into FB.

it doesnt seem to like that neither.

maybe my friends are tired of me, of IT of my subjects.

but the subjects dont really tweet it out either.

people dont write me nice emails saying what a good job i did for them.

all of which is weird because

I FRICKIN LOVE EVERY SINGLE PODCAST

i love the blog posts, i love the commercials, i love it allllllllll

i almost want to tweet

“i dont care if you dont listen to this but here it is”

but i do care

the thing is i care slightly less every week because i know people arent going to listen in the numbers i want them to listen.

we’ve done 19 episodes and only one girl is all omg lets make love.

one other has said something like that but shes married so it doesnt count.

the omg lets sex it up ratio needs to improve

but again, i dont care because i know how great these things are.

i know if i get hit by a meteor tomorrow people will say sure the busblog, sure LAist

but have you heard Hear in LA? it’s genius.

so much credit has to go to Jordan and if i die i hope he gets all the credit he deserves because heres the crazy thing that you dont see: when you have a team, a real team, sometimes you need the other guy to slam it home.

i can dribble dribble dribble but when i alley

i need someone to oop.

jordan slams it home every time.

he makes it better, but more importantly he closes the deal.

the other day i was all, ok we need some audio clips from jake’s youtube. i found them, sent them to jordan and because jordan is a pro musician he added some original piano underneath one of the clips to make it sound sad.

it made the whole thing sound perfect.

i cant believe how lucky and happy i am to be doing this.

if i can get even the smallest part time job for a little while i will be able to keep this train rolling

because someone is going to discover this

here’s the crazy thing: every one of our podcasts have gone up on time

i have never had a problem with deadlines

deadlines are your friends.

but this week’s was actually done a little early, i had time to watch church, fold my laundry, do some dumb baseball card things, and write a few blog posts.

am i getting better? do we have a little rhythm?

this blog post for Jake is actually way longer and includes more images than the typical post but i think because he spoke very clearly it was easier to post?

who knows. who knows anything. all i know is i wanted him very badly to be part of this

then it happened. and now he’s back in Texas for who knows how long?

sometimes that window of opportunity is there

and sometimes you have to wait outside that window and throw lil pebbles at it

imma go to sleep, wake up and put it up and be happy.

i am very happy doing this podcast.

this will be number 19.

nuh nuh nuh nuh nineteen.

i figure if i can make it easy enough for her to hear it and read it and watch the lil commercials

then i have hit the ideal barrier to entry

my problem is i have two youtube channels

a medium page that’s sorta behind a paywall

several different ways to access the podcasts

and then my crazy social channels, none of which she taps into.

so this weekend im gonna build a Hear in LA website, here on this server

and everything will live here

and thats probably not the best way to do things, but who cares any more.

i just want my mom to be happy and be proud

just like how Louie felt about his ma