sometimes i read her old emails

beckydo people admit that?

do you think less of me for that?

you shouldnt.

some people obsess over bad things. they’ll replay fights theyve had or ways others have wronged them.

id rather focus on good stuff.

she wrote me emails like almost every day. sweet ones.

i wrote her too. but for different reasons.

for a while we were right there. but then no.

pink floyd once said

and if the band youre in starts playing different tunes,

i’ll see you on the dark side of the moon.

which is sad. and i didnt want this to be sad. i just wanted to admit something that if i get hit by a truck today everyone would know forever. which is, yeah sometimes i still read an email or two from the past.

to remember when someone thought i was cool.