im not feeling myself

ive waited six months to get on some ADHD pills and now that im on them i hate them

they make me jittery and they dont even have speed in them

i am waking up in the middle of the night, im mad at everything

i feel like im on drugs

not fun, happy, natural things that come from the earth

but something sketchy that im forcing myself to tolerate bc i read on reddit they can take up to two months to get used to

it’s been like day three. ive tried them in the day and at night. both are bad.

not sure what to do.