so many people this month told me they want to kill themselves.

and i hope each and every one of them saw tonights Lost

because in it we are reminded that things are often not what they appear to be

and even concrete perceptions of simple concepts like good and bad

love and hate

and life and death

can often be jumbled inside the temporary turmoil of our circumstance.

Lost was my favorite show for so long and yet this year I nearly gave up on it.

like a fool.

today showed me that i am not even close to being the patient man i need to be.

in this instant gratification world where feedback comes quickly and steadily,

we forget that nature doesnt give a g damn about our pithy beliefs regarding control and time.

sometimes you have to just sit there and take it.

because the sun will rise tomorrow.

and a new day will dawn.

a better one than today.