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probably the most hypocritical part of me is clothes

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there are very limited circumstances where i desire to stand out

i know its hard to believe but i am not interested in being the story

do i talk alot on hear in LA, yes, but thats bc im trying to get the other person to talk more

one day i’ll try an episode where i give one sentence replies, or canned questions like that dude from As It Lays

im thinking about clothes because of dating

for most of my life ive been able to get away with never having to wear anything more than jeans and a tshirt.

id like to keep that streak going in part bc im lazy but also bc i feel the more i try the dumber i look, so why try

also i have this gut that rarely looks good in anything other than santa claus costumes

but im a hypocrite bc when i look at ambers old pictures i think about her clothes and how i either loved loved loved something on her that would inspire me to buy her something better

i bought a lot of her clothes and she was a good sport and tried them all

but mostly she just wore concert tshirts which i loved

was amber the girlfriend i thought i would live the longest with? no.

or at all? no.

and thats why i love God. somehow He figured, no ill use a little divine intervention on this one bc tony is just gonna sit around his house and work and work and not have this interesting journey

and it was

and i learned so much about how much a boyfriend can actually do

(not a lot, sadly)

and about codependency, which i def had, and will knock it off if i ever get another gf

and how if i ever start to get serious 

i will suggest that on one of our dates we spend a half hour just looking into each others eyes

trying to get as deep as we can

asking hard questions that cant filibuster

get to the point

and if that works out then fine, ill show you my favorite taco stand

one of my goals is to blog every day again

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while it’s true im busy af, unlike sucker mcs i can do it all

been writing tons for setlist which i adore

also im editing hear in LA now which does take time but its rewarding and i can not micro edit the thing so every little thing i want out is now out

the blog post still take a good 12-14 hours to do because my adhd is insane

talked to my shrink and she put me on new pills bc i was like hey this folkalin aint working

whats different about this pill – i forget the name – it just makes me happy

the last one made me wanna write love letters to exes

not sure if this one has made me more focused, but thats the goal.

last night i went to the movies and saw 1.5 movies

i was late for the beyonce movie but watched the second half anyway bc it was mezmorizing

she put heaven and earth into that show. he dancing. her singing. the set. the band.

no disrespect to t swift. but bey beat her on this one.

the sun in skeleton

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it started with this, which i think i saw on your page. i wanted to see what midjourney could do.

one way to get there is instead of /imagine you type in /describe and then put the picture you want in the little box that appears.

there will be four sentences describing it, i click all four to see how they differ, sometimes in the popup box i’ll take out dumb things and add my own, sometimes i put in: wall has “hear” scratched on it. when you put something in quotes it will try to write it.

fairly easily it made a few versions like this. simple knock off. lettering is lame, but whatever. it didnt have anywhere to put it so it stuck it in the corner.

then i remembered midjourney loves skulls and skeletons so i figured whatever lets see what i can do.

the original code was sorta bland so i took some things out and added new details and it ended up like this

horror and the blonde model lovingly caressing a tall skeleton whose hands are very low on her back, firehouse red lipstick on his bones, in the style of richard hescox, blink-and-you-miss-it detail, anthony thieme, album covers, “hear” scratched on the wall, boots, anita malfatti, soft-edged, fantasy-inspired –ar 13:16 –v 6.0

sometimes if you put. lot of things in there it gets confused so i like to keep it pretty simple and when that happens they do things like add jewelry. but what i started to notice is it was giving me way sexier scenes bc it was a skeleton than if it were a man or woman. so i kept pushing to see when it would cut me off.

suddenly i had all these pics of skeletons gettin propositioned

this one is prob my favorite because her legs are like marilyn mansons 1994 tour and how did bro get his jeans on?

like wtf midjourney, how do you know she could put her hand in his ribcage? i tried to get more pics of women doing this but when you want it, it hardly gets generated. you gotta go with the flow.

how do these skeletons have more expressions than the women? bc mj looooves skeletons

so about that theory that mj doesnt wanna render scantilly clad ppl… either thats changed or there was a glitch tonight. my guess is it’s changed.

this thing is a freakin marvel.


but i dont know how to dance. relax i’ll show you.


yo my eyes are up hear

why are these women soooo skinny? mj cray.


got bored and remembered you can juice up the effects by typing at the end –stylize 500 or something. i think this was stylize 666


what happened i think is it made things less painty and more photographic


so i went to 888 and suddenly it was a monster movie, fine with me


then i dropped it all the way down to 75 and woah

125. fantastic!

so on these motorcycle ones i was trying to get the skeleton bf to drive his human gf with her on the back and her hair blowing in the wind.

mj said lol but at least gave me a good skull but wtf with the pants?


then it kept putting her in the front of the motorcycle which was interesting.

so i went up to stylize 500 and it became artier which was cool but less skeletony and it excluded him and merged it with her


then it gave me this and i was bored again.


“in the style of [artist]” is a great way to experiment

you can see a lot of the artists and styles here

https://midlibrary.io/feature/portraits

today is thanksgiving and ive got questions

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were the pilgrims

– dumbshits who died pretty fast
– religious zealots who’s uptight views on sex poisoned us for centuries
– rebellious cowboys who dgaf about shit
– outcasts, debtors, crooks, and losers
– or the brightest minds who would kickoff a country that would eventually rule the world

naturally there were elements of each, but — is there a tv show or movie i can watch because i have a blind spot about my knowledge of the people who got on those boats and started this gangsta shit.

also, did they start it? was it in their hearts to take take take

is that human nature?

do i have that?

why do i feel like i have so much and it keeps growing on its own

i dont need your shit

but, is it different for a pilgrim? are they more desperate? are they more hungry?

when i first learned at like 10 years old what a harem is i was all omg i want a harem

but you grow up and you think i have a hard time fully connecting with one person

how am i gonna be able to do that with a dozen

likewise do you really need 10 houses

or the northwest territory

or ukraine

or my heart

this is why i made Hear in LA

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Today my favorite newspaper, the LA Times, put out their 27 favorite movie theaters list (left) which covers the same old familiar ground their 101 favorite restaurants encompassed.
This is the major reason I started Hear in LA. The media in LA is either too lazy, too uninterested, or too uncurious about both The Valley and South Central to give it the same love and attention as the well-worn path of Santa Monica to DTLA from the 10 to Griffith Park.

There are both delicious places to eat and delightful movie theaters in the Valley and South LA. Shocking, I know.

The Valley has just as many people in it as San Diego. Imagine having a San Diego right next to you and pretending there’s no good movie theaters there.

What’s telling is, one of the 27 movie theaters on today’s list made it on the tally simply because one of the staffers grew up watching films there.

“This theater holds in abundance something no other theater in the country (much less on this list) can ever replicate: my childhood movie memories,” the writer, Tracy Brown, who grew up in Long Beach explained. “It’s where my dad once whispered to me that you can make a streak of color shoot across the screen if you threw a Jujube just right (I’ve never dared to try).”
Now, crazy thought, imagine a staff that included Native Angelenos from both the Valley and South Central and the personal relationships they would be able to share about their neighborhood cinemas – if that’s suddenly a valid reason to be on a list?
Or crazier thought – what if the LAT intentionally decided in 2024 to cover *anywhere other than* this same old beaten path where clearly most of their staff lives?

what a crazy day today was

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its 420 and imma write this get high and go to sleep.

9am construction guys are coming thru.

gonna suck.

but today was great. finished my first hear in LA episode i did all alone

edited the audio and everything. crazy. had to learn about automation so i could adjust the volume within the thing. i also had to find music and insert that in.

was easier than i thought.

but half way through the day i saw a guy snooping around the courtyard. turned out he was an interview i was supposed to have.

embarrassed i put everything together and we did it and it was one of the best ones ever. he was such an interesting wine and booze expert with a fascinating story.

then a beautiful red head called me. then i was cooking and me and a’magine were texting so i just called her and that ended up long. so the episode’s blog post didnt go up till 10pm. then i had to work for setlist.

i had already done some of the research over the weekend bc i knew id be slammed today but i didnt finish till 4am because i never know when to stop on those things. and there was still more i coulda added.

some guy wrote in to tell me i was wrong about something and thankfully it went to bree who proved to him i was right. of course im right i love seeing whats true.

todays episode is very good.

we talk about antifa

and why he went from catholic to muslim to catholic again

and local politics which no one really cares about but they should. imma talk about it every time i can.

so glad this blog is working again.

today is moka’s birthday

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there was a time when i would just walk up to cool people and talk with them.

moka worked for i think wikipedia or something crazy like that, we were at sxsw in austin

at a rock show and i just cruised over

where did i get such courage?

where did it go?

we had a very good conversation and i think went to one or two other shows

kept in touch on facebook for years.

i wish i was more like that bearded man with the bootleg sonic youth shirt that i bet goes for $200 today

that was a selfie with a dslr with no viewfinder which is why most of it isnt us

the second best thing about that picture

it’s 322am im pretty sure i know why im exhausted

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today i published episode 107 of your favorite podcast

the guy i featured never told me if he liked it or hated it or what which is always disconcerting

but he didnt say TAKE IT DOWN so i guess thats nice

then i went and interviewed the most interesting man in his late 60s who is a novelist and TV writer who has a great Craftsman home. he grew up in South Central near Inglewood and achieved the American Dream.

he was so good but i feel like i didnt do the best job interviewing him.

then i got home and dilly dallied for my setlist work.

finally did what i needed to do but that took all night, ending at 3am.

and now im thinking about what i did the other day for Ambers sister, family and friends. i have all these pics. over 2,000.

problem is theyre very personal. many not appropriate for families. like her being cute in tiny boy shorts or topless or wearing sexy dresses. totally forgot how often she’d pose when id say holy shit what the hell are you wearing.

let the record state, we did not have a perfect relationship which is why we broke up 2x. but when we were together every day we did our best to make it work. knowing it was doomed. knowing there was an elephant in the room.

next to my resistance to commitment Mammoth.

we drove everryyyyyyywhere

pretty sure this is the Westside Pavillion roof right before it stopped being open to the public

we did this thing where id pose her looking out into the distance all alone

Date Night, she’d caption it.

so when we saw this totally barren parking lot i said run out there, sit down, and lets do a Date Night.

and i know i still sorta have it and i could probably get a girlfriend again but i wonder if the next one will be as open to pose for silly pics and

love me.

or just want me for my 1 pack abs.