anyone but me

it sunk in this weekend that anna is married, for real this time, and’s never coming home.

i dont know why it took so long for me to get it. probably because i have the greatest force field imaginable.

other day this dude was hating on me. someone who i should care about hating on me, but i didnt care. i mocked his hate. i fed off it. i literally turned to rubber and he to glue. it was frightening.

anna called on saturday in the best mood ive heard her in a long time. and i want the best for her. of course i do.

but theres a part of me that still thinks that im the best for her. theres part of me that thinks, shit, astrology alone tells us that im the best for her. theres a part of me that thinks, definately in the sack im the best for her.

she heard how i felt, my silence, and she began to cry, and said, maybe i know whats the best for me, and i said how do you say nonsense in russian.

she laughed.

then cried.

then i wanted to cry.

we hung up and i went through the short list of guys she went out with after me and how she sounded after each first date with them

and i thought, anyone had a chance with her as long as they werent me.

its ideas like that that’ll kill you the big bottle of rum said

redesign the wall, the hookah smokesignaled

use me moaned the porn

but you must keep the sabbath holy

so i just did my laundry

and drove all night

with the radio turned

hella low

17 seconds + rampant + britcoal

have you ever noticed

that the dude in the classic carol “I’ll Be Home For Christmas” doesnt actually get to go home for Christmas?

“I’ll Be Home For Christmas”

(Gannon, Kent)

I’ll be home for Christmas

You can count on me

Please have some snow and mistletoe

And presents by the tree

Christmas eve will find me

Where the love light gleams

Oh, I’ll be home for Christmas

If only in my dreams

My darling, Christmas eve will find me

Right where the love light gleams

And I’ll be home for Christmas

If only in my dreams

the Library of Congress tells us:

On October 4, 1943, Crosby recorded “I’ll Be Home for Christmas” with the John Scott Trotter Orchestra for Decca Records. Within about a month of its being copyrighted the song hit the music charts and remained there for eleven weeks, peaking at number three. The following year, the song reached number nineteen on the charts.

It touched a tender place in the hearts of Americans, both soldiers and civilians, who were then in the depths of World War II, and it earned Crosby his fifth gold record.

“I’ll Be Home for Christmas” became the most requested song at Christmas U.S.O. shows in both Europe and the Pacific and Yank, the GI magazine, said Crosby accomplished more for military morale than anyone else of that era.

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