i can. i hope you can too because im not perfect. i have done bad things. i have broken sweet girls’ hearts after promising id never. im probably not even gonna go to heaven.

but dont punish my fiction or my prose or my podcasts. those were my apologies.

i still listen to ted nugent. kid rock. and can appreciate trump’s appearances on stern back in the day.

kid rock put on one of the best concerts i ever saw. he had joe c, the little guy running around, he had a black lady drummer with a giant afro. showed up in a fur coat and track pants.

sue me, i love fur coats.

i love many many things if i thought about i probably wouldn’t choose but i still like em. youve never seen that picture of Magic in a fur coat? hall n oats?

hopefully it was faux but what can i tell you? my grandma had real furs, minks, rabbits. her great grandma was a slave. i give that woman permission to wear whatever she wants. and flaunt her wealth how she wants. love her. she beat me. with a shiny purse with a gun in it. totally unpc today. maybe could go to jail for that. but who cares. not me. i love her so much. i am her in so many ways and i love it. i wish i was more of her in more ways.

she would have demanded to get out of that jail. WHY IS A BLACK WOMAN IN HERE FOR LOVING HER GRANDSON WITH THE BACK OF MY HAND? HALF THESE NAPPY ASS HEATHENS BEHIND THESE BARS WOULDNT BE HERE IF SOMEONE LOVED THEM ENOUGH TO BEAT THEIR BLACK ASSES.

how do i know she would have said that? because she said it outloud all the time anywhere we went. so embarrassing but also wonderfully entertaining.

4 people at the grocery store. Grandma rolls her cart up now its 5. IF I WAS WHITE I BET REGISTER 3 WOULD HAVE OPENED UP BUT IM NOT IM BLACK. A BLACK WOMAN TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF HER FAMILY BUT YALL DONT CARE ABOUT BLACK PEOPLE D— suddenly a register would ding open and everyone would watch her get her way.

they tell me this director or that was bad or evil or even criminal.

ok. what was his apology like?